Uncertainty.

I just want to be with mature people. That's what I need tonight.
Having a road trip with a bunch of snacks, drinking mocha frappucino while having a very long hours of talks with them, watching the innumerable shining stars or waiting for the sun to set. How romantic it was when you have someone to be with those times, for couples i mean. =)

Night is the end of the day. It is the where the world fades for a moment and my uncertainties gets in. My mind keeps on insisting negative things that i don't want to think about. I'm too young for this. So young to be mature.. yeah it's true, in a way. I just act like a kiddo-kid when I'm with people who are mature than me... not older than me. I don't know. Maturation don't always compromise with age. Age tells you how long you we're living where in maturation is self-discovery, an increase in thinking abilities and understanding.

I have my own will.
I stand and decide in my own.
I know my limitations.

Everything has its OWN reason.

You can’t base your life on other people’s expectations.

People will do ignore you or even hate you. They will do anything just to bring you down. Making rumors to be notice. But the truth is they can't get ahead of you, you're just too high to be reach by them. Go girl. Be fearless. Don't live by someone else shadow. Bida ka kasi kaya ganon. =)


woooohooo. Almost 1 week na kong pumapasok...
Still pressured. NAUSEA attacks.

It's been a very long day for me, not a nice one. Ang hirap mag-petiks. promise. I try to slow down but my neurons don't agree with one another. Or stressed out, may I say... I was called by my professor these afternoon about our topic yesterday. BOOM. I do not know what he's asking. I don't know where am I on earth when he discussed that thing. "Did he really taught that at all??" Haha. I was so sleepy that time, a bit nervous. I was able to answer his question but I wasn't able to differentiate the meaning of those "things". Actually, the question is VERY easy to be answered. Common sense Common sense. whews... I don't know. Haha mababa lang naman yon eh. wala lang...
'di ko makakaila na very competent ng mga classmates ko this semester. 'di talaga maiiwasan ang competition. I'm not competing with them anyway. =).


I finally realized why am I in a03 last sem... my starting point.
I used to be a leader, a fight-fixer, a preacher? haha. I don't consider myself a smart one, madiskarte lang. =) very long story . . .


I know God planned my life, I just have to live with it. If things doesn't fit to it's proper places, it will be fit in time. I need self-confidence. I need courage. I really need it so badly. Positive ions, hunt me and attach to me, please??... I just do need it by now.

--naj