I miss those days.
I miss chatting and texting my friends all night, having endless talks "telebabad" with my barkadas, receiving letters every reco, getting surprises and gifts during my birthday or any occasion, and most of all, those people who trusted me a lot... those people who believed that I can do such things.
You can't realize the worth of a moment, 'til it becomes a memory... Though it's true, I still don't want to believe on it even fate is telling me. There's no exact word that can describe my mood tonight, feelings i may say. (drama. haha.) A bit of loneliness, unsatisfied, feeling of solitude? i don't know. i really don't know...
I miss my adviser-father of mine whom I could talk to, someone whom I can walk with. My true friends who gives me a warm big hug, whom can understand me and whom I can run to. My classmates whom I used to teased, having "wagas laughs" after hearing a korny joke.
.. everything has changed, especially those people around me now. I mean, college. I'm not yet used to it-- I'm just having a hard time in adjusting. I don't want to go in there anymore, I don't want to be in that place anymore... I feel so alone. I'm falling into pieces. I'm losing myself.
I miss myself. I miss God. I miss my family. I miss my true friends. I miss those people. I miss all of them. Feels like I lost in touch... If I could stop the time for a while, I would. If I can turn back time, I will. If only I can... I'll take the advantage just to be with them again.
I don't know how to end this blog, or should I continue blog my nonsense dramas here?.. I don't know. I really don't know. but God knows.
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